May 2013
7 posts
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Some people, my father for instance, figured out how to build a life through sheer willpower. Others, like my mother, had faith. Though I am not my mother, I have faith, yet I cannot fully live by faith alone. There’s something to wrestling through the darkness, as if it is the darkness I am wresting with. I call this process Learning Truth.
April 2013
27 posts
“Relax. You will become an adult. You will figure out your career. You will find...”
– Johanna de Silentio (via wendesgray)
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Dgaf
I stopped caring. I went on a horrible date recently and realized just how dumb dating is. I am over women, over going on dates, and I’m going celibate.
I think maybe after my career is more developed I will change my mind. For now, I am practicing brahmacharya and saving my morning coffee money for a later date.
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Women
I’ve been studying brahmachrya all day. And I think I never found love because the poetry of it is a sham. Beauty is skin-deep, lust is like an urge to smoke, play is always fleeting. I wouldn’t mind though if some woman changed my mind.
“If they ask what Love is, say: the sacrifice of will.”
– Rumi (via tobiji)
This resonates today.
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Rejection
I got a call today around lunchtime from an old thing. I’m not even sure what we had. I am saddened by the call. It brought back a lot of feeling of rejection and human failures.
I met her at the beginning of my metamorphosis, and now that I am much more matured-there is still feelings attached. I’m not even sure how she is important in my life. How can I make these feeling...
Honest assesment
Man, I’ve been digging a trench for a while. Since moving to California, I’ve acquired a car and a job that requires me to drive to. I made very little money for six months on a bee farm. There, I almost went mad and broke. I got a job. But it’s less money than I made in Omaha. And so I have a phone bill, insurance bill, gas payments, and food.
I live in an area that offers...
March 2013
15 posts
Time is of the essence.
Hello,
My name is Christopher, Kit for short, I am turning twenty-nine this summer and, fuck, I look at my life and I am not sure if I did a good job or a terrible one. What I do know is that I didn’t try as hard as I could. I am pretty smart. Not bad looking. Talented in some areas. Done with college. But, I bought my first car at 28 and the radiator already needs replaced. I haven’t...
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else...”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson (via thethingstohopefor)
“Having a low opinion of yourself is not modesty. It’s self-destruction.”
– Bobby Sommer (via sweetriotbits)
“You are being intentionally obscure as a substitute for having a personality.”
– Bonnie MacFarlane (Red Dead Redemption), on hipsters (via oboewan42)
Don’t stop dreaming, find another dream. One that is yours.
February 2013
13 posts
art by alfie ljuljdjuraj: on artists and creative... →
alfiealfie:
i know a lot of creative people. i know a lot of talented people. i know a lot of people who do art. would i call these people artists? no only maybe four or five of them i would consider artists. because being an artist to me, is not making things in your free time. its not waiting for…
